I have a few symptoms regarding my health that I am worried about. These symptoms pertain to other health issues that have nothing to do with TTC. Well, I guess it does because if I have other issues then I can't TTC!!! At this point in my life, I know that I am not in control of these obstacles. I had to learn to surrender my short life to God and life sure does feel shorter now that I have lost my own daughter. I will post more details later. I came across this verse while reading "Choosing to See" by Mary Beth Chapman -
My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak,but God remains the strength of my heart;
he is mine forever. (Ps 73:26, NLT)
I feel like my body has "fallen apart" through this journey of infertility and losses. The more I find out about what went wrong with losing Joey, the more I grieve not just for her but this body that couldn't protect her. I had so many mothers to talk to through my support group and blogs. Many have survived multiple losses and I continue to see their courage to keep hoping for a biological child. I am so thankful to meet these amazing women...I can only keep going and learning to rest in the Lord through these challenges.