I know I wasn't a consistent blogger since blogging has not been my forte for the past 3 years. However, I don't ever regret sharing my grief online and meeting fellow Babyloss Mamas in the virtual world. I remember how dark this part of my life was yet there were glimpses of happiness I found through the virtual friendships. I never thought I would find all the support online from ladies I've never met. Through the bloggers I learned more about pPROM, incompetent cervix, transabdominal cerclage, and grief. I found my loneliness slowly diminished the more I read the words of other heartbroken moms. THANK YOU for the HAPPY comments about Ayden! So I thank these bloggers especially for all the wonderful comments they have left in the past - Carrie from
Our Journey, Crystal Theresa from
These Fragments, I love, and Dana from
Butterflies and Rainbows. My heart goes out to those who have dealt with pPROM and incompetent cervix - I am always telling myself "Oh here is another lady with pPROM or IC or TAC!" every time I discover another blogger. I feel like a minority in my own world but the more I read I know that I am not alone!
I see Ayden and wonder how much Joey would've looked liked her younger brother. Every little mommy moments I have with him, I think about what it would've been like with Joey.... from diaper changes, to breastfeeding, and his cries. John just adores our little son and thinks he is so good looking! A little biased, I know, as any parent would be! Haha! So we have discussed how gorgeous Joey would've been as a girl.
It has been a GOOD year for many moms and rainbow babies. I am just ecstatic to see several healthy rainbow babies born last year from my personal friendships and this year in the blogs!!!! I can't wait to see everyone's baby pictures!
Here is my son again (: I don't know how many more posts I can make in the future. I may close the blog soon or find a way to print the blog as a scrapbook if that is possible (Please let me know if you have any ideas!)
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| Ayden with Joey for the first time and not even aware of it but one day he will know. |
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| I'm learning to smile now! |
